i’ve been a full-time cam model for three years and i just had a crying breakdown to my boyfriend last night (who is actually one of my former clients, i know, i know but i swear he’s one of the good ones) because i feel like i have to deal with the most disgusting, awful men day in and day out. don’t get me wrong, i do have nice people who visit me and tip me well. i’m able to support myself just from camming and i’m very grateful for that. but i feel as if a lot of these guys are using their anonymity to say the most vile stuff to me, neg me, push my boundaries on a daily basis and i’m tired of it. i don’t take shit from anyone but i feel like it doesn’t even matter - i’m a whore and that’s how those men see me and i’m reminded of it every day. it’s demoralizing. i don’t care if i get naked for money, i didn’t sign up to be sexually harassed. those men i definitely feel are the bottom of the barrel type. the rest of them are probably just regular guys, albeit with insufferable personalities (usually) that i’m paid to put up with. i don’t know. i used to adore being a cam model but lately i’m not so sure.