Here, you want some more. You talk about discontinue all leisure. How about hanging out with your family. Well getting together on stat holidays or whenever someone's in town visiting. That costs about a month a year. Only got 2-3 hours of spare time per day so running around burning me out, messing with my sleep. Discontinued and quit the family oh couple years ago now.
Any sort of fucking around will mean more days in the future working this shit job. So this is how bad things are where you "quit your family".
What pisses me off was selling my god damned golf clubs. And then my mountain bike. And then any furniture in here where people used to sit down on. Not in use.
"I think you're completely stressed out. ", yeah I'd say so. I'm not kidding around with this shit here.
I've got a few hundred business ideas over the years but can't do anything with any of those because you'd need to be a millionaire first. Only way I could think of to make money from nothing is with music. So that's the road I'm headed on. And I don't give a fuck how much this shit gets ignored, that's where I'm going.
ok.. so "I think you're completely stressed out. " Yeah, try getting out of the car 140 times a nite. Aids virus type cold for 5 months now. Pinched nerve in the back which may get set off and you're on the ground. Right arm fucked up and can't even put the car into park or drive.
Bad drain odor venting up from somewhere below, in the washroom. Spend most of my money on this wonderful shithole.
Haven't been laid in several years. Think it was 7. Over 5, not 10. It was maybe a couple years after starting this job. Think I started this dec 2007. Somewhere around 7 years. I could pick up a chick any time like I used to in the 90's but that'll cost more days in the hole. Bitches and their drama are nothing but problems. Shoulda seen this one bitch that was living here.. holy fucking shit.
Much more stable now. Long term consistency. Status quo, working on my music. So things are good, believe it or not. But there's always trouble on the horizon thats why I have to get my ass in gear before everything falls apart.
Now you guys starting to get it? This isn't some sort of living in the parents basement, pushing a loop button whipping off a track in 5 minutes. This is literally do or die. And it's more closer to the die side in recent months.