"In my reality people knew you didn't handle customer's money with bare hands."

I know this is the last thing you want to hear but it would be irresponsible to not say this to you... This is not a reality shift, this is just a service worker not following rules or maybe their manager never taught them.

There was a time in my life where I had extreme anxiety and depression and did not want to leave my house because I was convinced I had extreme body odor despite being hygenic. I imagined people saying things to me, laughing at me, coughing and sneezing as a reaction to my presence. And you know, maybe they were, people can be so mean after all... or maybe I was so anxious and upset my perception and interpretation was filtered through an awful, negative lense. Our brains can definitely do that to us.

It was an extreme and scary experience, I thought I'd never live a normal life, but I went to therapy and took my mental and physical health more seriously and took responsibility for my own experience in this life. That's all we can do really.

What also helped was having non judgmental friends and family who understood my fear but kept assuring me. Sometimes the anxiety around that will still arise but it's usually fleeting and mostly resolved.

Sometimes when we are extremely stressed we lose our balance and grounding and it helps to reach out for help and support as you are doing now but I really hope you can reach out to someone in person around you and find an understanding therapist/counselor to help you feel your best. Please take good care of yourself.