He says the carts will be in Friday, then Monday, then they won't be in for a while, and I was going to re-up in the afternoon Christmas Eve but he was waiting on his guy, said Christmas he'd have it but he was busy with family dinner by the time I'd got back and never got back to me- whatever, it's Christmas, no big deal, then today he tells me he ran out and is again waiting on his guy, who I thought would be by ~6pm at the latest, until I was told the "latest he'd be by was 9:30" and hey, it finally happened. And the guy got carts, too! Truly a Christmas miracle.

My current dude is great, definitely among the best and I've had some great friends and professional as hell hookups. I'm just sick of it. Lemme go to a store with hours and like, online shopping and shit, pay for my shit on my time and leave. No more waiting on people waiting on people waiting on people because the entire town, apparently, relies on like one dude rolling through with "the pack."

And I mean obviously there's worse shit like having to meet up with some rando whose number you got who wants to meet in like, cars in some random fucking neighborhood, or some kid (adult tho) who wants to drop off like literally down the street from his parents' house. I'm just so done with it, and there's obviously the anxiety of my current dude moving/getting busted/etc and then shit I'm back to... fuck, I think my next likeliest hookup would be some random coke dealer I got weed from out of the back of his apartment one time (hooked up through a coworker). Unless my current coworkers have connects, but I think the one who definitely does uses the same connect my connect does, so it's back to waiting on people waiting on people.