Ok! So, my ''best-friendship'' with this guy began 3 years ago, at which time his parents had divorced and he had stopped seeing his girlfriend, so he really didn't want to spend time alone at his house. I gladly took him in my house any day he wanted, sometimes a week straight and I think the most time he spent with me was almost 2 weeks. So during all this time our friendship grew a lot and you could feel the love between us. We always preferred each other before anyone else.

We never disagree, always think alike, have the same hobbies and we both love and respect each other a lot, or so I think. I started questioning that love and respect from his part lately, when he suddenly stopped staying over the night at my house, meaning that he went from being with me for a week straight sometimes to being with me only one day maximum. I had no clue as to why he did this.

''Why?'' I asked him. ''It's not like before anymore. My parents got back together and I'm seeing my girlfriend again. We won't be seeing each other as much as before.'' He said. My heart shattered in a million pieces and I was left speechless. This was over voice messages btw, I stared at that screen blankly for minutes, trying to contain myself.

I cried for hours straight and held a knife in my hand as I contemplated ending my life. If this wasn't real, what is? And I'm still shattered, I don't know what to do. I just love him and want to see him and he just replaced me.

He will still want to come over someday but I can't stop suffering over the fact that he will leave in just a few hours. I feel more pain than happiness when seeing him at this point. What should I do? Should I just leave him alone and suck it up?