I hate people. I hurt people with my temper last year so I'm not that vocal about my anger anymore, but it is still there. I hate people so much. People who are happy, people who have successful relationships, people who have anyone.

I lost my family in the pandemic, and now I absolutely hate seeing people have theirs. I don't know how to help it. My former partner left me because of it. I try to talk to fellow grievers, and have stopped pushing away people who want to talk to me anymore, I even listen to my therapist often, but the pain just doesn't go away and I'm scared it never will.

I truly don't want to talk to anyone I know, people I don't know as well, and I hate being a part of society anymore.

I'll probably delete this comment, but I just wanted to say it aloud because I've been keeping it in since so many months now.