I’ve been someone’s mistress for 5 years. He’s been doing this with me for the entire duration of his current relationship (around 2 years).

He’s an awful person. She’s incredibly controlling and verbally abusive to him (possibly even physically abusive).

They live in a nearby city, and he visits me about 3-4x a year.

She wants to get married and have kids within 2 years. He tells me he will never marry her and have kids with her, that he’s only there, because he’s convinced that she can make him a millionaire (she cannot, he’s just extremely gullible).

I know he’ll end up marrying her and having kids with her.

She deserves to know the truth, before they get married and start a family, so she’ll know what kind of man she’s marrying. I don’t know how he can live with having this kind of secret, for the whole relationship - always hiding something from her. He says he loves her. He says he loves me.

This shit is old, and I’m tired of how consistently cruel he is to me. He once held my purse as ransom to get a blow job from me, the day after I got a concussion and a torn rotator cuff from a fall. When I said I physically couldn’t give him one, he kept my purse for a month. I just wanted my driver’s license, at least. He wouldn’t even mail it to me.

I want to tell her, but he says that if she found out, he would kill himself, because he would have nowhere to live, and he’s adamant about never returning to my city, the city that we met in, and that he lived most years of his life in. He thinks he’s above my city. He is not.

He has done so many bad things to me. But, I’m just not a revenge type of person. I’m sick of the injustice that I feel, knowing that he’s getting away with all of it.

I’m always hurting and thinking about him.