I hear you, I've beein taking a similar amount, also very stressful few months, things are definately looking up, good thing is you can be back to "normal" in a relatively short time compared to other "drugs". This is my third go around with kratom since last year when I discovered it. Right now I've been drinking it for about a month strait starting at about 4 grams a day or less, and then two weeks ago taking 2 to 7 in the morning mostly more than 4 and then like 10 to 13 at night. My morning or afternoons (I woke up at around 1 to 2 and was working as a waiter) were pretty much always epic, and then i guess would try to take a shitload at night to knock myself out but it didn't really work and I started to realize I was just taking a lot and it was actually having adverse effect of lowering effects building tolerance and clogging up system, kratom works differently from other things, I think it stemmed from being concerned about being too stimulated before bed at too low of a dose. Also I've heard it is an antidotal property as in stem and vein that works to counteract effects, i have stem and vein so was aslo taking that a lot with my night doses, seemed to knock me out but not feel the best. I think stem and vein has sleep aid properties. Regardless I took about 2 tsps of the socal red indo when I got it tonight upon returning to my house at about 12am, and had very pronounced effects haha like wow holy shit this is awesome, but only problem was the clarnitin...I usually go to bed about that time, but was laying awake at 5:30 like head racing eyes bugging out and still feel like sleep is impossible. Honestly it was a huge mistake, I haven't takenna pill as "medicine" for a long time, and i knew better. especially since when she showed me the box i saw that it was essentially sudafed and benedryl combined, like literally, lol, pseudoephedrine and loratadine, i was like this is a bad idea but i was stuffed up from dust and mold at her grannys. But I underestimated it and forgot that it can be like speed but worse for up to 24 hours, I only took it as of now like 16 hours ago. I'm also extremely sensitive to things.

I think I'm good now, I found some cannabis and had sip of wine, and now the kratom is hopefully going to go into a sedating phase. And honestly I've been using kratom partially to stop smoking weed and drinking, two things I want to be for the most part permanently done with and I hadn't had either in over a week. K initially helped me with starting that process and also with a difficult job, and then I quit it for awhile and got back into smoking and drinking, took a break from k, tried again, then went back to s and d again, so this time around i started taking k again now for about 2 months and was also d and s, and started kind of weening off the other two, they are things I know for a fact are not beneficial, I happen to have half a bottle of wine and about a hit of m which is now gone, it was nice smoking one last time to help make me tired, I used to smoke to help me sleep everynight...The smoking has really fucked up my lungs and my whole life...really glad to b done, at least with inhaling burning smoke. I may be done with the plant forever. I prefer k for sure and fungi..which also happened yesterday and was superb ;) And this time around I've had the best k I've ever had, first from herbal salvation then from indo ela now from socal. I experimented with a small dose today one tsp of green borneo and 1/2 tsp of white maylay and it was great, maybe I'll send you some I have quite a bit and I love it. Was a good day despite the claritin, very uplifting and Love filled long lasting with great energy..I know I'm going to finally kick the two bad habits but I just have to be smart and realistic about how much k to take and how often. Def tapering off now and cleansing. Resetting with stem and vein. definately never want to use it more than 5 times a week again. Going to sample socal first though and taper to avoid withdrawals although the wds were never rrally that bad and can be overrided by other things and dont last long. Really excited to come at the socal strains again when i am fresh :) we also went to an ecstatic movement dance which is great excercise and is mandatory. ..as is massage and energetic stuff...