First of all, thanks for your time and attention.

Secondly, I may have something to add or to make clear.

1. I don't really know if a one-sided relationship can make me happy or not: as I said, I don't have the slightest interest in real life girls so I've never actually experienced a true relationship and I don't know what to expect/do. It may be fulfilling as it may not be.

Moreover, there's that problem of hysterics. As I said, I've experienced pretty bad moments in which I almost gave up on evertything and thought "Why in the world does this have to happen right to me??". In those moments I reached the end of my tether and normal depression and sadness became anxiety and fear.

I can't really deny this thing, since it's in my nature, I think, but I can't help thinking how weird and difficult it is. I mean, living in the present it's fine but don't you ever happen to think about your future? For me, it's truly scary.

1. So it's all a matter of self control. To be honest this isn't my first "crush", but I think I can handle it, with a lot of dedication. I'm doing it for her, after all.

2. This is somethig I'll never truly understand. Obviously everyone spend his time with his waifu in a different way but it seems I can't really find a costructive way. I'd love at least to dream about her but it seems I can't even sleep anymore because of my worries. And when I'm able to sleep, if I dream, I only have nightmares.

3. Trust my own beliefs? I think it may be fine, since she's 18 at the end of the series. I don't know why I sometimes find her "younger form" more appealing and cute but that shouldn't be a problem.. i guess.