https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_aAA9-edO3I
This is a motivational speech that i listen to almost daily when im feeling anxious/sad/lonely.
On some point you will hear about an african proverb that says "if there is no enemy within,the enemy outside can do us no harm";it
s basically a fight with ourselves,this anxiety,and its damn hard to come to peace with yourself and destroy
your inner demons.
I
m suffering from this aswell and its dragging
my life into shit,i know how you
re feeling.
Like you,i also fear judgement from the people around,especially from strangers.Thats why my schedule in the last 2 years of highschool and now the first semester in college is go to school-come home-sleep-stay at the computer-sleep again(at night,
i only sleep 2-3 hours and i have to catch up in the after-
-noon.I lost any interest for going out.
My new year
s resolution is to start hitting the gym and
read some self improvement books because i have huge self
esteem issues and along with my SA,its a very bad combination.Don
t know if i will really be able to gather
the nerves to go to the gym,because i will have to go alone and i dont know how comfortable will i feel,especially in the first month,
cause i fear the new.
I have recently lost a very good friend and i dont even know why,he didn
t tell me,he just blocked
me on facebook without any word.My best friend fell in love and when shes with his gf,he doesnt say
a WORD to anybody(including me),he just spends all his day
with her,without letting anyone know what
s been up to him lately.In the summer she will be moving with him,so i fear i will loose my best friend aswell because of the lack of contact.
If that happens,i will truly be lonely and feel like shit.
The thing that i wanna do myself for self improvement is to start reading some books about this issue;i recomend you do the same.There are alot of good ones on amazon.Also,there are alot of youtube videos,like the speech i gave you,and alot more about this topic that can encourage you. You should try a therapist aswell,could be useful.Damn,i`ve been thinking about going to one myself for a few months now and i think i will go at some point because i kinda need it.. Best of luck to you mate and sorry for the eventual mistakes!