Went into the office yesterday. I was extremely anxious and barely slept for days anticipating it. When I got there and people tried to talk to me, I was so fucking awkward and weird. People talked down to me like a child because of it and it sucks so much. I can tell they all think something is wrong with me. Now my partners family member is visiting the house and I really like her but I can barely talk to her. I have no idea what to do. Today she asked me how I am and I just froze and didn’t say anything at all. Partner tells me to just let my guard down and be myself but I can’t :( have found myself relying on validation of my looks online to boost self esteem bc I feel so bad about my awkwardness. My nervous system is so fried lately from anxiety that now my body spasms and twitches all over from it