I’m not really sure who you are, and I don’t really know what you’re going through right now, but personally I think you should not kill yourself. It sounds kind of insincere considering I’m just some random stranger on the internet but I’m really hoping that you end up not going through with it. I really wish I could sit here and type up some magic words that completely turn you away from the thought of doing any harm to yourself, but that isn’t possible no matter who tries to do it. However, I am an avid believer that if you try hard enough you can get some form of what you want. Maybe not exactly what you want, but some form of it. I’m assuming you definitely want to get rid of whatever pain you’re going through right now, and there’s really only two ways to get rid of it that I can think of. The first one is killing yourself. The pros are that it’s quick and can be done at any moment. The cons are that it’s quick, can be done at any moment, causes loved ones lives to never be the same again, and cuts a persons life short (I’m not trying to promote toxic positivity but who knows what kinda cool things could have happened in that life had it not been cut short, there would definitely be bad things too, but certainly not just bad). Those are the ones I can think of, but I’m sure there are many more. The second option is slowly working towards a better life. The pros are that your life will become better, you’ll be able to inspire those who may be going through what you were at one point, and you’ll live a more fulfilling life and leave behind a better legacy. The cons are that it’s pretty hard and you’re not sure exactly when it’ll get better. Despite how hard it may seem looking from the outside in, it’s definitely not something that cannot be done.

The world can be super messed up, but it definitely is more than meets the eye, there are people who aren’t absolutely terrible unforgivable people, and it may seem hard to look for them if you’re surrounded by not so great people (once again I don’t really know your situation so this may not be true but I assume that if you’re feeling lots of pain there’s definitely something or someone around you that isn’t too great). All you really have to do to find the not so bad people is step outside of the circle of bad people, which can be hard in cerain situations but never realy impossible.

Anyways, that’s some of the stuff I wanted to say. I tried my best not to do all the cookie cutter “everything is going to be okay” bs, but I worry that it may come off that way. I can’t physically stop you from killing yourself, only you can do that, and I really hope you are able to stop yourself from doing it, and maybe even share your story if you feel that you need to.