At 19 you were just a child trying to wear adult pants. Whatever boundaries you thought you had could easily be swayed by a tender conversation and a few bucks. It’s nothing personal, you were a vulnerable 19 year old broke kid who men saw as an easy target. Truly, nothing personal, you just weren’t in charge of anything cause you had very little leverage. You may think you had some kind of power but real power is paying someone to do what you want them to do. As you get older you’ll realize how used and abused you were and you’ll need heavy therapy. It’s sadly celebrated on here because I’m guessing everyone is young and naive but there’s nothing to be proud about letting others rent your body and you being so desperate that you have to let them. Men are kind during these situations so we don’t feel as guilty for what we’re doing, we try to buy away the guilt by paying your rent and giving you cash, it makes us feel better