Just had to chime in on working in cancer clinical trials while also dealing with your own cancer!… that’s me too. It’s a very special kind of overwhelming. Like you, I spend my days in the charts of patients with end-stage cancer and the feelings range from survivors’ guilt to frank terror about what the future might hold. On a good day, it also feels really good to be contributing to the fight against cancer, but this is definitely the part of my life on treatment that’s hardest for me to explain to others and to sort through myself.

Please feel free to message me if you ever want to decompress or compare notes. Praying and pulling for you!