Sorry if I come off in a weird state, thought I was in the middle of building a deep meaningful relationship with a woman who has dated those kind of guys, and had a genuine back and forth, plus I'm actually quite attractive just super on the spectrum, been in and out of institutions (ALWAYS EMOTIONAL OUTBURSTS AND SCREAMING due to being overwhelmed usually ironically from trying to IMPROVE my life and FACE MY EMOTIONS and let them wash over me but sometimes when you are able to have your head surface while drowning you "SCREAM YOUR FUCKING HEAD OFF" sorry jackass neighbor did I interrupt CSI Miami or whatever pointles sbullshit......l SOORRRYY everyone has problems and rich inner lives, don't get anywhere by turning others into zero's especially when you wish others wouldn't dismiss you in the same way, just maybe show some fucking compassion though? ahhh fuuuuhhgghghgh. Maybe if I turned myself into some kind of artisinal IPA dude or even did pottery inspired by "where I live in Canada" or some shit, wore a vest and a beard with my asshole business partner in some idiotic "Canadian City!" magazine to pretend we're vibrant and full of "artists" instead of just endless subdivisions and shitty architecture that would get way more pushback if we really were some hidden gem for creative types, still awesome place to live though and I'm being too hard, keep externalize anger instead of self reflection, ahahahah I wish I had like 8 mouths or sets of fingers I could build on and contradict myself in tandem... just ASSUME I am aware of how crazy I sound and know I would conjure up 3 shadow selves to rebut myself if I could??? Sorry now Im making myself sound grandiose Im just a dude...