I didn't want to answer this cuz it makes me look like an Idiot but here I go...

If cociousness is all there is (or at least all we can experience) how can we ever experience true peace? Suffering and satisfaction scale one another up. If the mind can only compare things one can not be without the other. Which brought me to the question how this exisTece should have started in the first place. Which made me think that perharps time isn't linear and thus I came back to my first issue. I can't realy explain it.... Whatever the case I suck at physics and I don't know much bout theology so I won't find the answer. And I probably don't need to. But evrytime this pops up on high dosage my trip turns bad.