Hello, my name is Ethan but my internet friends call me rofi or pfam.

Um, I've been wanting to write something on here for about 2 hours and 45 minutes but I couldn't really think of what to say. Well up until about 24 hours ago, I lead a pretty average life that I would consider to be good. I mean I would still consider it to be good, I have food, a house, internet, a family, a dog, even a few irl friends.

Now, on top of all of this I had a girlfriend that I met online (i know i know, but it was nice). We had been e dating for about 8 months and things to my knowledge at least, had been good. So abouuuut 24 hours ago, right as I had finished up an exciting internet adventure in the land of minecraft, she texted me telling me that she didn't know if the whole distance thing was working out (on top of a few other personal things but u know). I didn't even think she was serious, as a day before I literally did not notice a thing wrong with anything.

But the more she told me stuff the more real and real it started to become, until it hit me. Yep, this was happening and there was nothing I could say that would change it. Not gonna lie and say that I got over it that night, in fact I spent pretty much the entire time crying for the first time in years. I didn't feel up to going to school today so I didn't and spent the whole morning trying to sleep and forget everything. I'm feeling better now, but just really wanted a place to put all of this and just get it out, as if I was having problems before today she was always there to make things better.

So, I'm sorry to those of you who feel this is not the best place for me to dump all of this, just ignore it if it brings you down or whatever.

I can say I am great full to have visited her once about a month ago when things were still good. So, with that be sure to be happy with the things you think you might take for granted as they might not be yours tomorrow.