I had a dream that involved a friend of mine getting paid for sex. Basically prostitution. I woke up saying “Yep, I could see my friend doing that,” and for some reason, that dream ruined my mood for the entire day. Can’t explain why, it doesn’t make sense.

Brought up feelings of inadequacy and made me realize that as I get older, I’m becoming more needy for intimacy, something I’m severely lacking.

This friend was the only person who gave me a taste of intimacy, and it was so her needs could be met (also been feeling used for the better part of 2022 because of it).

Basically, I’m a pathetic excuse of a human being and am just sounding off because my brain don’t work right.