I had an interest in Japan for a long time and I also really like languages and teaching so being an ALT sounded like a great idea, and as a job, it was nice and my students are cute! I feel really bad leaving them and I know at least some of them are going to be sad.

My family situation grew even worse after I accepted the job offer because my BPD mother couldn’t cope with the idea of me being out of her control and it spiraled into me eventually accepting how bad my whole childhood was (trauma!). I didn’t know I was going to have flashbacks because I wasn’t really hanging out with kids as a university student nor was I getting any adequate support. I just wanted to make kids happy because I wasn’t. It’s unfortunate how it turned out honestly.