This is more like me. I was so horribly lonely. Been on meds for a couple years now that’s helped but maybe at75% of where I would like to be. Right after I had my baby I had postpartum depression and I’d even get excited when religion spammers knocked on my door. Just a face to see or someone to ask me how I am. I’d put on a smile and be genuinely happy for a moment. Once the door closed it was back to numbness. I hated being alone, and I’m usually a very shy person, never have been a big socializer. Any little thing my husband said put me in tears. Even after a pleasant phone call to my long-distance family, as soon as we hung up, I’d cry again.

I guess since I didn’t really have any friends (new to town) and my family lived 2,000 miles away, there wasn’t anyone to notice anyway.