(throwaway account for obvious reasons)
This is really a TL;DR of a much broader fucked up childhood, but let's see.
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Parents:
Born to an immigrant family who's lost about 90% of their relatives in the holocaust who've all had terrible anxiety issues. My parents both hated their lives and both could not move an inch from their own self interests, were divorced when I was about 4. Dad used us as a way to get even with my mom both financially and emotionally (for example he used to write little notes about all the little things he bought us like candy then ask our mom to pay back half). My mom had a shitty job while my dad had en executive military sector job and had way more money than her. Mom left home a few nights (those that I can remember) out of angst because she couldn't handle us kids alone anymore and was too stressed. I also recall she threatened me with a belt a few times though I honestly don't remember if she ever really beat me. Dad would never trust me with anything even though I've constantly proven to him that I'm very good at certain things (like navigating a map on the road, or drilling holes in the wall). He would make the same mistakes over and over while I would be right over and over yet he would never admit his fault and tell me "good boy". Oh and he never ever ever ever hugged me, I don't have a single memory of that. My sister was basically the princess of the house. Everybody had to do her bidding and she would get way more stuff than me. If she wanted something and didn't get it she'd just go on an anger tantrum and later that day get her wish.
What I got from this:
School:
I was bullied in school constantly. There was this kid who's life long mission was to make my life miserable. I was always last to be picked to sports. Teachers would always try to find "the middle ground" even though it just ended up with the kids knowing they'll get away with anything. Fuck school.
What I got from this: