Lying my self down in front of the toes of jagged rocks

Hoping that the waves will wash me away

And take me home

Hoping I succumb peacefully

And wake up

Painlessly

With out

The need to escape

Suffocating

in deja vus

Struggling to create fire

before I become

Sedentary

The nights passed

The walls murmur

The waves won't reach me

Tonight

How much longer

Before

I become granite

Stepping into a black hole

Become forgotten

Trade my memories

For another chance

Just to make the same mistakes

Again

And

Again

New players

The same cycle

Again

And

Again

How many self-inflicted

Accidental

Suicides

Before

I learn

To trust

My shadow

Assassinated by free will

Saved by the will to live

Only

To be poisoned

And slowly

Die alone

In a cancerous mirage

Acting as a toxic moat For the greater good

But look at capitalism

But look at us

But look at communism

But it's all fucking broke

We've all

Lost hope

Prophets

For a lost cause

Amongst

A lost

Generation

disillusioned

Convinced a few crumbs

is a substantial slice

Which we trade our pride for

So don't expect us

To survive

In a world

Filled with mouse traps

While we're the lab rats