It’s ok, OP. Stop blaming yourself and move forward. As others have said, this is a process more than a cure. But you do have to put in some work here, especially “self-talk”. Like, “I’m bored so I’m going to the fridge and crack a beer”. Lol, no, you’re just bored, but you’re fine and don’t need the booze. You’ll just be drunk and bored. The medication helps, but you need some therapy (CBT, specifically) to help you change your habits and think. The medication works, but it’s not a magic pill. I think the idea is, you self-talk yourself out of having another one, and the meds help tamp down on your brain being all excited for alcohol.