In $100k of student loan debt: should I finish my BFA degree so I can become a full time artist?

To the last - I have multiple health issues, which I will try to educate you on. I have been hospitalized multiple times, not just for psychiatric reasons, apart from my migraines, which is the main thing I'm struggling with. I take 6 pills in the morning and 14 at night, plus a liquid twice a day, and steroid inhaler twice a day, plus a rescue inhaler/nebulizer as needed. I have 1 or 2 doctor's appointments a week. I know my doctors' numbers by heart but not my boyfriend's. I frequently need to go to the ER or urgent care for my migraines or asthma currently, and I have three headache disorders, chronic migraines, occipital neuralgia, and new daily persistent headache (which only 0.03% of the population has) - for the past year since they started, I am literally in a constant level of intense pain for which they have only let up for hours or a few days at a time literally, and for which I can take no pain killers except for NSAIDs two days a week. Migraines are not just headaches. Light, sounds, and walking bring me intense pain and nausea. My eyes feel like they are being gouged out and my head throbs against my pillow and sometimes I see veins in my eyes throbbing. I see both a neurologist and a headache clinic. I get occipital nerve blocks and will be getting botox, which is an end of the line treatment for chronic migraines, and if that doesn't work, I'm getting nerve decompression surgery. I might develop Barret's esophogus from severe GERD and frequent esophagitis so I need to be checked with endoscopies. I have chronic idiopathic uticaria and my body has been covered in hives for no reason for weeks or more until I went on steroids for a month, etc, and I still need occasional steroids for that, migraines, and for my eczema as well (plus topical). I just developed back issues, again, (scoliosis and I injured my back before) and my neurologist is sending me back to physical therapy. Dealing with getting my health under control, especially my migraines, is hell right now.

My mental health is a whole other long story. I've tried 30 medications for my migraines and 25 for my psychiatric conditions, of which I have four. For example, PTSD. I was horrifically abused by my parents my whole life. I witnessed my dad trying to kill my mom and I intervened. My second earliest memory is my dad smothering me with a pillow when I was three because I was crying, and not stopping until I stopped. During my nursing program second semester, I was the only person first semester to make the dean's list out of 40 students. But I persevered through a lot until there was only so much I could take. Second semester, I got a 3.6 despite my dad doing things such as getting on top of me and choking me saying he could kill me, or running at me with a knife saying he had nothing to live for and to kill him, or my mom pouring ice all over me. Yes, I broke down after that and was driven to being suicidal because beer was splashed on me minutes before I had to leave for school, my parents sometimes hit me, I was severely verbally abused, etc. I can go on. There was only so much I could take. I had no way out. I tried everything. Crisis counselors, abuse hotlines, shelters, suicide hotlines. You don't have enough information on my life to make an informed comment.

But now that you are so acquainted with my disabilities, what sorts of health or personal issues do you have going on that people don't know that are invisible on a daily basis?

/r/Art Thread Parent