Could you explain why you think it sounds like an obsession? Just want to make it clear to myself if it's really that.

I am not trying to antagonise anyone here. I respect her decision and it's her's to make. If it sound like what you said it is, I am sorry. That was not my intention.

Actually, I knew her from three years ago. We talked then but, never developed feelings for her. I recently messaged all my old friends and that's how I started talking to her again. And, yes I was scared that I might get too optimistic and imagine stuff myself. But, it was too real. One time, she asked if I was interested in her and I said yes, I am. I then asked her the same and she said she was attracted to me too. My mistake was missing the subtle difference between being attracted to someone and being interested in someone. So, yeah after she said this, I kinda was sure she was into me even though that might not have been the case for her.

Honestly, I don't like casual relationships at all. If I want to do something, I will give it my everything and if not IDGAF. I never liked to casually flirt. I only flirted with her after I was sure myself.

Maybe, i have never been on this road. Never found girls interesting. Too immature at my age. She was the first one who was like me. Only reason I loved her. And I don't think two months is too fast. I think I know enough about her to say I trust her more than myself. Actually, I wanted to take things as slow as possible. I only wrote the letter because, I was scared I waould be too late. I wrote it just to let her know how I feel. I asked her not to answer because, it's not a question for her. I was going to be in this as long as it took if she wanted to continue it.

Now, that you say it. Yes, it must have hurt her. Because, she never wants to hurt anyone. I have placed an order for her as a surprise before all this. I will be forced to contact her (maybe on messenger) to make sure it reaches her college. So, I will apologize to her and tell her I will be back once I made with peace with myself. Thanks for this.

And, I appreciate your reply.