I think I understand how you feel. Back in 7th-8th grade, there was a girl I had a pretty big crush on. Throughout high school, I had quite a few opportunities to get to know her, I had friends who where classmates with her, she was in the same after school club that I was, and so on. I don't know why but I was always afraid of getting rejected or being embarrassed. Like many teenagers, I was naive and believed that I'd always have time in the future to settle this. Welp, I'm sitting in the last session of my after school club and I realized that my chances to get to connect with her, just like my time in high school, were soon to be over. The last week of school, I was quite anxious and depressed. In the end, I never actually got into any meaningful conversation with her. Graduation was pretty painful because one of my close friends pointed out halfway through that she was sitting a few rows ahead. He later told me I looked like I was about to vomit during the graduation ceremony. I'm now a 2nd year in college. I'm don't think I've gotten over this whole thing yet but I think I'm able to start accepting the situation. You may not ever get completely 'over it'. But remember that as with everything in life, this was a learning experience. Even if the tuition was a bit high. You're still a senior in high school, you might still have a chance. In the end, don't get discouraged. Enjoy your senior year of high school. It's the last chance you'll get to be a kid. :-)