Thank you for your post! I feel you on so many of your points. I have dealt with the "I've got this, I'm fine" and in my case I think it's because I learned really deep down, early on, that other people just weren't there for me when push came to shove. It has taken a lot to get down to the root of that. I still have to remind myself to take a breath, have a snack, and accept help. Help was used as a way to prove that I was incompetent when I was young (like, 'hey you young little dummy, let me "help" you because you can't do it alone'), or for others to take credit for the entire undertaking, so my deepest instinct is to do *everything* myself so then nobody can steal it or say I am unworthy. Oof!

I hope that you find the path to recovery that works for you.