Thank you for this reply. The negative voice is always in my head, I can never seem to get rid of it. But I am always trying to work on controlling it. I used to despise living but now I want to live and I even feel happy sometimes. People do find me attractive, and I’d love to try and get to know them, but the guys who find me attractive are very stereotypically hot. I have body dysmorphia, but I’m not not blind. I’m cute but I’m not hot. I’m not even that cute either. The only cute things about me are that I have cute big blue eyes, kinda like the guy in the hobbit, and I have an adorable smile. But the guys who try and get to know me are imo way too hot for me. I can’t understand why a guy so good looking would be interested in me.

I have deleted all my social media, I’ve only kept messenger. It has definitely helped in making me actually enjoy life. I feel free from most negativity now. The most negative thing in my life right now is the voice in my head, always telling me I’m not good enough.