if you can’t fully recover is not the end of the world or of your life. and 6 months is not that much time, you will get better over time. many of the things you’re feeling are still the drugs they gave you, its your brain trying to function properly again. and you said that you took Abilify for only 4 months? im not familiar with that specific antipsychotic, im not american, maybe in my country that one they dont use for some reason, so i don’t know about your side effects or your experience, i can tell you about mine; i was on clozapine for the longest time, that was around 5 to 6 YEARS. and before that antidepressants, sleeping pills when antidepressants caused insomnia and after that anxiolytics that they were building up to get to clozapine. then after 6 years of clozapine i did cold turkey because i knew that if i didn’t i would die and also learned that what they were doing to me was a chemical lobotomy based on a bogus diagnosis that completely ignored that my emotional instability came from childhood trauma and negligence from adults around me. i have my ups and downs but im now in a context of love and understanding. nobody screams to me anymore or tells me im inadequate, so my recovery was fairly easy if you compared to others experiences that you can read in this sub. i had the fortune of having very good friends even though i have a myopic and inept family. so im optimistic regarding recovery because of my own experience. that said, you wont get back everything they stole from you, but nobody does. it doesn’t matter the kind of abuse, it always takes something from you, but it is your choice what you do with what’s left. you can only work on what you have now. work on your selfcare, exercise, eat the right foods... you can also try supplements that encourage brain function, like Lion’s Mane mushrooms. work also on your positive relationships and discard all toxic and triggering people from your life, even if they are family, (unless you still dependent/need them. that situation is more complex). if you don’t have friends you can trust, try to find them. this journey is more easy done with good company. good luck to you.