Ironically it was the Christian sentiment that Satan is the accuser that helped me mentally break out of the idea that I had to explain myself or justify myself to anyone. No, I don't think people are devils lol, but I used to feel like I had to explain myself and justify my every belief and hobby and habit to people. Especially if they brought up these topics and conversation. Lately, I've learned more about boundaries but also I've learned that I can just keep my mouth shut, I don't have to explain or justify myself to anyone, especially people who are intent on forcing me to. I had to accept mentally that it's okay if people think I'm weird or wrong or whatever, that's fine. And I've had a lot more mental peace.

I think it was even worse with myself compared to other people. Especially when I was consuming cannabis, I felt like I had to justify everything to myself as if it was a court of law. There is science that shows cannabis can lead to paranoia and I believe it wholeheartedly because when I was consuming it my intrusive thoughts about eating to defend myself constantly were even stronger