I try to take one step at a time and live day by day. Not that I don’t have confidence in myself but I’m handicapped in a way. I can honestly say that I’m not smart enough to pick up new skills and I’m very slow at learning. I can say maybe I try to impress others pero it’s mainly for myself. I don’t feel stuck in the rat race to be honest when i just want it to be over. When I was younger I hit my head a lot of times, I wore a helmet cuz i keep on hitting it. Sometimes I think that maybe my depression is part of that. My shrink when I was a teenager said it might be a part. I have a goal but it’s not really long term. I don’t try and think about the future. It makes me anxious thinking about it