One of the reasons guys go out with younger girls is they generally aren't angry and bitter. You yourself are angry and bitter now in your 30's. No one wants to deal with that. You're ugly on the inside and only seek to infect others with your toxicity. You had your chance but now life has passed you by. Stop trying to gatekeep happiness. Maybe try working on yourself first. Go to the gym. Get good sleep. Stop eating trash. Fix your fucking shit. Maybe then all that poison in your mind and body will be gone. You won't do any of that though. Instead you'll continue down your bitter and lonely road. By the time you hit 40 you'll be north of 250 pounds still talking about the same shit. There is no hope for you.