There's a saying that everybody is going through something that they're not talking about - what are you going through and why aren't you talking about it?

I'm growing up, (almost 16) and I just feel very weird. I'm becoming independent and responsibility is something I've always liked, but now I'm starting to feel afraid of the change. I want to feel like a kid again. Everyone around me is focused on careers and stuff, and thinking about the future is scary. I whenever I do something good, I just get the 'this was expected of you' apparently because of my potential and Shit. I want to grow up and leave a mark on the world, but then again I feel like nothing really matters. In the last two thousand years, only religion founders are seriously remembered and I want to advance science. But does the earth even matter? What exactly is life? Why are we only trained to carry on our species? To spread life? We don't know of anything. I want to know.... But I also want to do so much.... Then again I want to do absolutely nothing and be carefree.... I don't speak of all this because so many people are going through their own stuff. Thanks for this question.

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