I am 38 years old. I was bullied at primary school by my head teacher, and at high school by a couple of teachers and many kids.

At primary school, I couldn't sing very well, so my headmaster made up a song about me and got the whole school to sing it while I sat there crying. That was one thing I remember. He terrorized my existence.

By the time I was 11, I was a psychological wreck. I remember my mum waking me up one morning by putting her hand on my shoulder. I jumped out of bed screaming.

I didn't have a chance at high school. My whole social development was just fucked. Although I was always smart and creative I did very badly academically and ended up in a succession of soul destroying menial jobs while barely keeping my mental state above water. I taught myself to code and am now an unsuccessful indie game developer :)

I still automatically assume that people don't like me. I get these spontaneous fantasies of being attacked or getting into violent confrontations.

I have never been in a relationship, and feel deep down that I am not a real human being who can be loved. I have a lot of baggage from the fact that it was girls who treated me the worst at high school. I have always felt like a subhuman monster with no right to a sexual existence.

On the other hand, I am completely aware of how ridiculous this is. I want to leave it all behind but my sense of wanting justice, of wanting people to know how wrong it was keeps me holding on to it.

On the plus side, I became an anti-authoritarian very early on. I am not fooled by appeals to authority and am immune to the herd mentality. It wouldn't bother me if the whole world was against me. I am also built like a brick shithouse.

But anyone who suggests that bullying is character building should remember what happened to Thulsa Doom, when he told Conan that he made him who he was.