I've been depressed for over 10 years and suicidal on and off for most of it but only last year finally was able to get help. After a few months of treatment and things getting marginally better, I abruptly lost my job, and I've now been unemployed for six months. The first month I had to cash in all my savings bonds (like from when I was 5) because I had no other assets, just to pay my rent. Now I have to put everything on credit cards so even if I do find a job soon I'm now thousands of dollars in debt. I had to go off my depression medication cold turkey, which led to serious depressive episodes and mood swings. The one good thing that happened to me when I lost my job was meeting a girl I started dating, but that quickly ended after I had a depressive episode and it was too much to handle. Finally found a psychiatrist who would take Medicaid, got on meds for a little while, then that doctor was arrested for Medicaid fraud. Had to go off meds cold turkey again.

The only good part of losing my job was that I hated working in sales and desperately wanted to do anything else. Six months on and I've yet to receive a single call on any non-sales job that I've applied for. I even receive emails specifically telling me they decided not to call me. At this point the only course for the rest of my life appears to be a career that almost caused me to kill myself in the first place just so I'd never have to wake up and do it again. So now I have to decide whether I want to do that job again and continue living a waking nightmare every day, or just being homeless (honestly a very balanced option for me) or taking more drastic measures.