I'm probably a rare case but I'm very open about it. I believe all stigmas against mental illness should be considered a hate crime, and that all people suffering should be able to openly speak about their issues without fear of ridicule. Because honestly that's really the only outlet, and closing that only makes it that much worse for everyone dealing with the pain.

I've talked about it openly with a lot of my close friends and it's plain to see that they've lost interest in being my friend, but I've found that it's the best way to weed out those who are willing to stick around. Right now I'm at just a couple people I could consider friends, but honestly that's enough for me, I am a solitary creature. It's just how our generation is. We are simply not ready to accept that some people are fucked in the head. Like I can function most of the time, I can bring myself to socialize and put on a smile, but it really is just a something out of my control that comes over me and wipes away all the positive energies I've acquired between the negative waves.

My future is what it is. I dropped out of college, don't plan on going back because the current liberal college conditioning machine goes completely against my own political beliefs and it is that bad to the point where I pick up on the things teachers say to their students to slowly condition them to think like the professor. Did you know 9 out of 10 college students vote like their professors? Professors know this, and they abuse the fucking shit out of it.

Anyway, my future is what it is. I've decided to take a super relaxed path of life by being a custodian. My shift is 8 hours but only involves about 5-6 hours of work. I make music all the time and that allows me to express my emotions away from myself without having to have someone there to talk to, and that's extremely important for me.

Sorry if I'm ranting here, just giving you an example of what its like to live with depression, although mine also has a fun mix of bipolar, anxiety, and OCD in there as well. Keeps things interesting, or so I tell myself.