I feel like that would freak them out.

I know I seem like such a basket case and write so lazily here that it may be hard to believe but I was a local small time journalist for some years, pulling out a notebook freaks people out lol.

but yea I mean I guess Im just gonna get my rights clear and tell them straight up Im just here for my meds.

but I just feel like they have something they want out of me, or that would have just been good enough and he wouldnt have to talk about me being angry and not clicking with him. Like maybe I was making him look bad because sometimes I canceled and didnt go in much.

It’s really painful to sit there screaming inside because you are hurting so bad and needing help and having to say everything is fine, but even worse when they act like you owe them something.

There is nothing whatsoever they could do to actually help me, except get me my meds, and about once a year they fuck that up and I have withdrawal so I dont even take most of the meds available to me.