I fantasized about being abused as young as 6. I was molested at 5. Sexual abuse re-wires the brain to associate abuse with pleasure and pleasure with abuse. Unwanted arousal during assault does this. It is trauma. Stop scape goating women. No woman wants to be raped. And no I have never feared a woman raping me, and it’s rather fallacious to compare something harmful like women who have learned to be aroused by their own abuse and oppression, to men being turned on at the thought of violating women. I’m also heterosexual. If sexuality was a choice, I think I would want to just be lesbian tbh... given how men are, people really need to grasp sexuality really isn’t a choice cause most men watch porn and I find that repugnant. I don’t find most men attractive because of this. Or safe.