My boyfriend (28) and I (29f) have been dating for nearly 6 years. I'm waiting for a proposal that is just not coming. We have known each other for over 10 years and I have been told by many of his friends that before we dated and when we were just friends, he had always expected to end up with me. But each step of our relationship, he has hesitated to commit. We did long distance for a year and when I moved to the same city, he was not ready to move in for 1.5 years. We even broke up for a month over it. We have had roommates the entire time, although we will be moving into a house this autumn and it will be just the two of us. About a year ago I asked how he would feel if I proposed - I don't mind if we do not proceed traditionally. I am ready to settle down and start a family but I want to be married first. He was firm that he wanted to be the one to propose. About 2 months ago I told him that not getting engaged or married has me worried. I asked if he was really interested and being honest is the only way to be fair - he should let me know if he has concerns about us not being right for each other. He was adamant that he is happy as we are but he still sees room for us to grow and does not understand the rush. I grew up as an only child and have lost my family - my mom and grandmother in the past 2 years. I want to make my own family and there is a sense of urgency for me. I doubt that I have the patience to wait for something indefinitely that I know I want and have wanted strongly for the past 2-3 years. Especially since he won't put anything on a timeline. Each day I feel resentment growing. Our 6 year anniversary is approaching and I do not even feel like celebrating it. I am ashamed, angry, resentful, and hurt that I have dated someone that long. I do not know what I would celebrate. I feel like the love that I have for him is morphing into resentment and doubt instead of growing stronger with time. I am less interested in intimacy, which he does not connect back to this problem and just thinks my sex drive cannot match his. I am resentful to how much time we spend with his family (every week for 4-6 hours plus 2-3 vacations each year) - how can he value family so much but not want to start his own? I have a hard time hearing about our friends getting engaged - they were single when my boyfriend and I started dating and now they are getting married - a close friend has even been divorced and remarried in the same time period. If my boyfriend would have proposed 2 years ago, I would have been surprised and thrilled. If he propose a year ago, I would have been relieved and thrilled. If he proposes now, I might yell at him for waiting so long. If he proposes 6 mo? a year? 2 years? 6 more years? from now.. I might be gone.
tl;dr - About to hit my 6 year relationship mark and I'm not sure if I should celebrate that time together, break up to find someone ready to settle down, or keep waiting for a proposal.