I'm 974 -> 351 and my life is getting wild going from 9 -> 3. I'm working hard to make my dreams come true for the sake of other people. 3 comes in when I began to label everything physically in terms of "why" "how" and creating several organization systems + asking for help , 7-> 5 is when I began to obsessively read about non-fiction in order to make my life better + 7-> 5 is when I started to improve my fantasy WITH reality , and 4 ( my heart ) was suppressed and then unsuppressed as I dealt with my trauma. It went to 1, because I know what it's like to be forgotten. I want to work to help people that are like me. I want to deliver the best quality product ( 5 + 1 = 3 ) to be a lifeline for other people who suffered like I did.
Right now I practice ( realistic, not bullshit unreal platitudes ) gratitude a lot and spend a lot of time keeping myself in check while studying. The free time I have now changed my life. I feel kind of insane going from 9 -> 3 though , it feels like I'm cheating or something but I realized that other people just naturally do this stuff so the face I made like... eating a sour warhead or something like... wowwwww... that's crazy...
Other 9's I really believe in you, that what you have is important to the world and you deserve to unleash it upon it. The world can take your ( anger / ambition ) , if you can take yourself first... Read a lot about reality / listen to podcasts / do things multitasking ( podcasts while working ect ) with love...do everything with love. I promise that there is an end in sight. Just keeping on going... it's enough sometimes. Being the utmost kind to yourself, despite thinking yourself is worthless, the reason I'm able to be kind is that I think about my future self as a different person. Someone I would care about as much as anyone else, someone who will be confused, and clumsy, and is forgivable to exist. I love you all very much. That's the post for "growth" I think I should be making. Have a good day :D !!