A little backstory first. Well I was an open and pretty happy child at first, always tried to inform my classmates about things I learned and was more extroverted. This worked well until they started getting into puberty. Suddenly they made fun of everything I did, then my curly hair, then for being quiet... and then it started to get into physical bullying like being punched, kicked, and spat on.

I was always told to ignore them, and I did, but it only kept getting worse. I couldn't defend myself because people made fun of me defending myself when I did! At the same time my parents had the most terrible physical fights in front of me, my mother became an emotional wreck and in turn would hurt me both mentally and physically (since then she has recovered - she's a different person now). The teachers going along with the bullying and yelling at me for things I didn't do didn't help either.

The result of all this: I've got OCD accompanied by social anxiety, I get majorly anxious in social situations now all because some fucktards would make me think that everything I did was wrong, and now I'm terrified of being laughed at. I've had panic attacks over it, I couldn't sleep, and I'm still a fucking wreck. Also because I dropped into depression since I got physically hurt in school, and even when I got out of school and went on a vocational school depression showed itself in my marks, and I couldn't do some presentations due to having fucking panic attacks whenever I tried to work on them and it is just fucking annoying. I have to take treatment for...probably the rest of my fucking life. I have no real life friends, only online buddies and feel like I'm just socially crippled and if I try anything I get ridiculously anxious. And it's bothering me because I try to get over it but I feel so broken inside while trying to keep up a happy smile.

I've lost trust in people, if I have a secret either all my friends know it or no one. In turn I'm a very honest person, though I don't exactly wrap up my honesty in cotton candy. If you look like shit in those clothes you'll bet I'm gonna tell you, for your own good.

There's no use in trying to pretend you are someone else because they will not give a shit anyway, so just be who you are and fuck everyone.

I'm not easily offended and when I see people freak out over the tiniest things I just think to myself that they need to grow the fuck up and stop being angry at such insignificant shit.

Also the earth isn't just beautiful nature, rainbows and sunshine. In fact it's unfair and horrible and we are in the middle of this all as self conscious meatbags.

TL;DR It ruined my life and future and I would have murdered them if there were no consequences but ya know, I don't wanna spend my time in jail, or dead.