People aren't into desperation bud! You need likes and dislikes, turn ons and dealbreakers. Goals and dreams, progression, something to hang your hat on. You need substance! Multiple dimensions. Thoughts and feelings.
The majority of people aren't into sentient sex dolls, that's boring!
Couple of books I've read and had success moving from where you are now to where I am now (probably only a few months ahead really, it's been a decent year for self improvement my side!):
Similar concepts, you can probably get away with just one of them. Deffos keep up that therapy!
It can get better, absolute best of luck to you!