He can work, he does not have a car, he does not have enough money for even first months rent let alone first and last and a safety deposit.

I know I could get my family to just be the ones to do it, but I feel guilt, because he isn't a "bad guy", he's a broken traumatized person who didn't deserve the shit hand he was dealt in life to begin with, or the shit I dealt him as a crazy person who was insecure and jealous for years.

I would never involve the police because police get people killed and it's unnecessary.

Tonight my grandma who I live with has gone to the hospital and I'm scared she's finally going to die. Her blood pressure was so low they could hardly get a reading. I'm realizing that if she doesn't die, I don't want him here because I want to repair my relationship with her and my grampa before they die.

And if she does die, I don't want him here, because I want to be alone finally and mourn on my own and not care about him.

I finally told my grampa the other day that things are not going alright for a long time and I feel hopeless and trapped. He was understanding, and wasn't forcing me into a choice.

I have around $2,300 total dollars, I am on disability for my mental problems which now seem to be only related to this relationship, and I am considering giving him all my money and cutting my losses and saying again what I said before. Take this money, leave here, I'm sorry for my mistakes, please go.