Family's financial situation is terrible.

My Mom and Dad's relationship has been terrible since my earliest memories.

I feel a but abandoned since he went started a new family and partly left us to fend for ourselves. Don't even know where he stays, but don't care at this point. Also kind of feel sorry for him cause his financial situation is just as bad as ours.

In my final year of college but still don't feel like I know what I want to do.

I feel like I'm good enough in my major to seem like a great student, but not good enough to get a job if I graduate.

I just feel a bit hopeless, and hearing things will get better, for some years now hasn't really helped, even if it does get better saying it will does nothing.

But, ah well, I keep myself distracted with personal projects, some manga, novels, and no matter how hopeless I feel there's always a tiny part of me that never loses hope, to the point where it's annoying.

Sorry for the long post, just needed to let this out cause I can't really put it all in one sentence. If anyone reads this, I hope things are better for you, else, well I don't really have anything positive to say.