I wont say please or to contact me.

Saying you're going to kill yourself soon to a bunch of folks is what's unforgivable. If you're going to commit a crime, it's sort of terrorizing to others to let them know in advance. What's the point of that except to savor their horror? "I'm going to go murder somebody. Will God forgive me?? Tread lightly bitches." Nice.

Or were you too busy seeing everything from atop your high horse to realize that you're not making a comment on everything and everybody, but your own extraordinarily pessimistic worldview and ludicrous victim mentality. Get help. You're not thinking clear enough to be making major commitments or solve complex problems. That's the truth you've been avoiding and that you believe your last act will bury. It wont.

Source: I had a close friend who committed suicide publicly, at his high school. He hanged himself from the baseball diamond just before lunch so everybody would see him as they went out to. His bid for attention did get him into the newspaper, and in his notes and things he was sure to gush about how selfless he meant to be and how very sorry he was in disturbing all of our lives. Actually, it was his choice, and his own narcissism, taking advantage of our sympathy and love to have his own vanity hour that he felt he deserved.

Don't take your feelings out on everybody else or make a statement about life. Your obligation is to not waste everybody's time and energy put into getting you this far by seeking actual help. You owe it to the Maker, your ancestors, friends, family, and community, and the like. Stop the pity party and go get help from them.

If you kill yourself, you wont be forgiven. You'll stay very dead, and we'll move right along, and you'll rest with your choice.