The second was a set of emails from Duncan Murdoch, President of the R Foundation and an R Core member, in which he dismissed my "bug report" (note the skeptical scare quotes he put on it) "about some variable name that you find offensive is clearly an example of nothing more than shit-disturbing" and stated that myself, and those who had commented in favour of changing it, were no longer welcome to participate in R's bug-tracker.

Reading that felt really good for some reason, like when a thing happens in the world that makes sense. Maintaining a large, complex piece like R takes a lot of time and energy. It seems this Duncan person seems to want to nip this time and energy wasting bullshit in the bud before it spreads.

Bullshit like this belongs to the realm of idiot humans and their idiot problems, not programming.

I am not developing any new R packages. If it's not on CRAN, it's going away. I will not develop more going forward.

I am not developing new features for my existing R packages.

I am resigning from the R Foundation Task Force on Women. While the individuals involved are lovely and brilliant, I cannot implicitly endorse the Foundation as a solution to problems here after an incident like this one. I wish them the best of luck in creating the world we want to see.

I am resigning from the Diversity Committee of UseR 2016 Stanford. Again, this is no fault of the team there (which is great).

I will not be attending UseR 2016, or any others.

You do what you gotta do. Just remember that like all computer programs, R is a piece of software that exists independently of your emotions. Its not affected by them. Only you are.