We’ll spend the rest of our lives in the rat race

I appreciate your advice. I had a whole thing written out but it was a rant so I stopped, but basically, I can’t feel happy anymore. Not without guilt and disappointing everyone. And even if I do achieve my dreams, I know nothing will change. Depression at google is the same as depression at McDonald’s, except you get to eat better and live in a bigger room. I don’t see hope for me. But don’t worry, I’m not going to kill myself, at least not yet. Life may be suffering, but nothing scares me more than the eternal void. I appreciate you for taking the time to write a thoughtful response, but it’s like another language to me. I just can’t be happy

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