How do I go on when things are so hard?

Perspective, my dear. You move on by gaining a different perspective.

Because everything your feeling is so real, and so valid, and I ache that you have to feel that way.

But there are some truths you are forgetting along the way:

1. Having a multitude of job offers doesn't gain you any prizes: you need just the one, the good one you want that will allow you to shine. It's like finding a SO, which incidentally is much harder and I'm so happy for you that you've done! You just need to right one to come your way, and you can't rush it. If money becomes an issue, I trust you'll know what you need to do to make ends meet, whether it's babysitting or stocking shelves at Walmart. You're responsible, and your smart, and you and your jewel of a SO won't let you starve.
2. No one can afford kids. That's the dirty secret no one likes to say. They always cost more than they make you, but when the time is right things work out. Like I said, the fact that you're even worried about this tells me you'll be a much better mom than I ever was to you.
3. Oh, friends. They come and go, which you already know. A new life is exciting, but it's also hard. And you'll get there. You'll find a new job (and whether it's stocking shelves or the stock market, I'll be proud of you!), and your work friends will become your friends. If you're lucky, one or two will be with you for a lifetime. But chances are, those friendships will come and go, too. The only person you really need as a constant is your SO, which you have. I wish I was able to be that constant for you, but I'm not wired correctly for that. I wish I was. I wish I could lovey you both the way you deserved. But she's there for you, and she will be there for you, and mostly I'm happy for you, even if I can't say it.

You can't hurry, love. You just have to wait. Things will start happening.