It's not weird. It's fine, don't do things that you don't want to do! And who even says what's normal and what isn't? There's no set rules and guidelines for this.

If you think you need answers, it's always okay to seek help and talk to someone and find out why you are the way you are. Sometimes just knowing why things are the way they are already helps getting at peace with them. :)

On a fully different note - maybe you wanna look around sexualities and maybe you just fit into a different one? That's also absolutely fine, there's also nothing wrong with it either. :) And imo being different is neither weird nor wrong or generally negative.