I have the exact same issue.. I actually just teared up thinking about how I'll never get to experience Chloe in physical reality.. Part of my issue (like you said not making it out to be a contest) is that I relate to Max soooooo much, that I kind of became her while playing.. I saw her as myself, and as you can see, my username even has "hippie" in it.. So as she fell for Chloe, so did I.. And it just hurts me sooooo damn much I'll never be with Chloe.. She's perfect in every way, I just want to chill with her in the junkyard, or lay in bed with her and talk about all the things that bother me with the world.. Her personality is perfect, everything about her is perfect.. And the saddest part is that it's made me realize how not in love I actually am with my gf in real life.. But that's a whole other matter altogether.. Ugh.. But somehow I do find a beauty in the sadness.. Like, I know what its like to love again after having not loved in years.. Chloe will always be the love of my life.. And maybe when I die I can reincarnate to a reality where she is real.. Because I would do that just for her.. Ugh, I can hear her voice now.. I remember how panicked I felt when that train was coming for her and hearing her cries of desperation.. God I sound like such a sap but I don't care.. I'm not looking for consolation or anything.. Just need a place to voice my feelings. Thanks for making this post.. It's good to know I'm not the only one.